Love of a Mom and the word “Hey”

   Lets start with “Driving Lessons 101” I couldn’t figure how to title this. So the word “hey” I suppose can be a defensive word. I was driving to church yesterday and pulling out of my driveway to the right. I guess I should look to the right and I didn’t. So when I took my foot off the gas and looked there BAM just like that was a lady right in front of my car. I put up my hand and said sorry rolled down my window and “Hey I am” Well boy did I go wrong I got yelled at big time. Finally said sorry can go a long ways sometimes. Now to her defense I realized I almost just totally ran her over and I am sure her heart was racing and she was scared out of her mind. To my defense I have NEVER seen someone run on that side of the road that way and first off if you are going to run and you see a car pulling out of their driveway arent you going to make sure you make eye contact with them and make sure you see them before you run 3 inches from the grill of the car. well I suppose I wouldn’t know but logical if you ask me. She was so mean and I couldn’t even get my sorry out of my mouth before I was smashed into the ground by her unkind words. So with all that said Yes, I should have looked but I am not the only one in the wrong she needs to be diligent when she runs on a street and on the opposite side of everyone else.

   Now to the love of a mom. Struggling daily with Cam these days and the words I hear and have to put up with are heart piercing. Don’t get me wrong I have tried to correct his words in every manner you can imagine. Today like many days was “MOm you don’t love me with all your heart” You don’t love me like Brandon, Tyler, Cameron” “Idiot”  “you hate me” …….Now we have passed that part and now we are in the destructive phase we have thrown grapes across the floor and wont go get dressed. Now he keeps yelling “mom” and I am ignoring him because I have asked him to go get dressed and he is worried about why he has to go to his room after school. “ MOM, why do I have to go to my room” “ Fine Mom I am not getting dressed” At this moment he has a pillow in his hand and going to throw it at me. But he wont. Crazy moments like this makes me want to cry. We have been in fit mode for 20 minutes now. Finally giving up and walking to his room to get dressed but not quietly. The words still coming…..Now some may be reading this and saying he needs discipline. Some may say well I would put soap in his mouth. Let me tell you. We have done it all and have been doing it all. Now let me tell you in the fit stage we are in at this moment. We have come out dressed and said sorry and as sweet as possible like he has not a clue what was wrong except he does because he just asked me a question and I said no and he said “how come because of my behavior this morning” So realistically he knows, but does not get why it was so bad and I don’t get why it is so uncontrollable. Still I will love him and guide and know that most likely as he get older this will escalate unless we get the help we need.