A Mother's Love So Strong So True!

    Today is the day. I have been struggling with a situation in my life. I don’t talk about it because no one seems to understand. The reaction when I do talk about it is it is normal. If this situation is so “normal” then why cant I deal with it or handle it. I am or think I am normal. Is there really a normal? I can not relate and am struggling. So besides the family members in my home and one outside family member knows of this situation. I seem to be the only one who can make a decision. So with many weeks of prayer I took my first step to making this decision. I cried all day off and on, Crying as I lay here and write this. I cried on the phone to a total stranger….who does that? Let me tell you who does that.



     A Mother does. A Mothers love so deep and so true. A Mother so helpless she knows not what to do. A Mother who can try and rely on God, but does not like what He is telling her to do. A Mother who has more than one responsibility in her life. A Mother who is to protect all her little blessings at all times. A Mother who is helpless at this time!
    
      I don’t think this is the end of my journey I am about to begin. Harder days are certainly going to come. I am going to continue to rely on God and make the decision I need to for my family sake. I just pray God shuts the door if it is the wrong decision for my family. A Mother’s love so strong and so true. I hope when it comes out you all love me just the same and do not judge me for the decision WE made for our family.

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  1. DinahAugust 13, 2010 at 10:24 PM

    Hi hon -- I have no idea what is going on in your world...but your words, your thoughts penetrate my heart. Causing me to stop & pray for you. You are loved beyond comprehension -- WE are loved. His love is massive, enough to carry you, even when it feels so heavy. Love you.

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  2. BeccaAugust 13, 2010 at 10:46 PM

    God knows it is heavy. Thank you Dinah. We will talk soon. I need God's Grace and Mercy on my family right now more than ever. I will trust in Him and Him alone. I will trust Him in all I do for He is good all the time! I am loved, most of all YOU are loved by me and Him!

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  3. Julie FAugust 15, 2010 at 11:01 PM

    Praying for your amazing family right now, Becca. That you will see, feel, touch, taste and truly experience His crazy love for you all. ~Julie <><

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